If you thought I had fallen off the edge of the world, you are not that wrong. It’s been about a year since I have visited this site – it wasn’t that I didn’t want to,or didn’t try. I basically developed Bloggers Block . Now it wasn’t your old usual kind of motoring journo block, when you look at a Tata or a Chev spark and you just feel that uninspired kind of block. Mine had a bit more high voltage drama.
Some of you probably know this… So if it’s boring switch your ignition off…but for those of you who don’t – I had a rather awful (and expensive) car accident in September 2013 . Because it was an Italian super car it attracted quite a lot of attention in the Sunday papers and on Twitter. But it was after Gareth Cliff slagged me off to the nation on his breakfast show that I kind of crawled into a ball and died. The hype did inspire a whole lot of traffic to the site but at the time I was too shaken to care.
Plus it wasn’t cool kind of attention : I pretty much felt like I had done the worst thing any person on the planet could do …. Smash up a beautiful shiny mega million buck metal goddess. And of course the women driver jokes that followed me for a long time didn’t help. My site soon became a bit like a circus of people whose curiosity was pretty well drenched up in cruelty. Social media does that. It gives even the most limp minded individuals courage to be cunts. So I stayed away. For far too long. I have always said : don’t let the bustards get you down. I should have taken my own advice. But recently I got a little braver and like all good self respecting girl petrol heads, I went and got myself a tattoo.
IT SAYS :
WHAT WE CALL THE BEGINNING IS OFTEN THE END
THE END IS WHERE WE START FROM
( inspired by TS ELIOT – who is not a petrol head. )
So I guess this means Girl Torque is back on track.
And don’t forget it’s Joy Ride time tonight on Kaya FM
PS. Thanks MdF for sorting out the site and inspiring my Horse Power back.
I would be lying to say that the crash in the red car hasn’t caused all sorts of problems and at times mayhem for me since it all went down exactly two months ago. But taking it all one day at a time, staying
clean and sober and going back to Narcotics c Anonymous meetings has given me the inner strength I have needed and am needing to navigate my
way through all this. And now for some fantastic news. On Thursday after long negotiations
with the station – the one and only
Sagie Moodley ( he from the hugely popular A word on cars ) and I will be kicking off with the fastest show in the airwaves THE JOY RIDE on Kaya FM 95.9 between 8-9pm. As they say as one boot slams another bonnet opens. Can’t wait to see you there.
With the recent accident I have had to search hard and deep for answers and meaning. It hasn’t been always easy to see the lesson in the pain. But on a particularly dark day about a week ago when I was beating myself up and feeling so bad, I suddenly remember a passage I had written back in 2005 in my first book Smacked.
With frenzy building for the final episode of series 5, Breaking Bad to be broadcast tonight on AMC (..I will wait till 2am to download it SA time ..) I thought it would be great to look at a few iconic cars from BB and meet the guy behind the carcasting, Dennis Milliken.
“As much as I’d like to take all the credit for this, I have to proudly admit that the cars on Breaking Bad have Vince Gilligan’s fingerprints all over them,” says Dennis.
I of all people should have remembered the conclusions regarding the art of positive outlook in my first book Smacked. In those post heroin crack depleted days when combing my hair was an Everestian task…I came to believe after much pain and tortured soul stuff, that the mind was like a machine and everything we feed it , we manifest.
I wasted far too much energy on a few idiots today…people who had posted absolute libelous rubbish on Facebook and Twitter regarding my accident with that car beginning with a F…it never ceases to amaze me how bored, stupid and downright ugly the bottom feeders are…and worst of all that I even gave it energy ….No I have not relapsed …no I was not trying to kill myself…